'I'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong...'

I actually have this limited edition shirt designed by Kanye West for some kind of charity causes. I wore the shirt to death and everyone around me can tell that it's one of my favourite piece of clothing. However, I don't have the guts to wear the shirt anymore since the whole Taylor Swift- MTV-Beyonce fiasco. Afraid that all the Kanye haters out there will beat me up.Hahaha.

I'll think I'll wear it tomorrow. Haven't done the laundry yet.

Weird fishes arpeggi

It's the song that I'm currently listening to while finishing my Reading & Writing assignment.

Everyone around me caught some kind of a bug..not recently.
They will be playing it every night, talking about buying things such as Babolat, 02 silver and whatnot.
Watching it with awe, praising every move that they would call 'a beautiful serve!' and whatnot.

Nadal, Serena, Rod Laver Arena, Australian Open, linesman, ATP,WTA and Federer are some of the vocab that are quite alien to me.

When they speak of it, it's just another 'language' that I don't understand.

What was your name again, dude?

Today, I read somewhere that Nicole Richie and Joel Madden welcomed their baby number two.

Sparrow something-something- midnight Madden??

Wow.Celebrity kids and their quirky names.

girl gone wild/behaved badly

Location: Hobart, Tasmania.
Time: Early July, winter break.

As the saying goes, it's okay to laugh at ourselves.Don't take life too seriously.

Don't take life too seriously.I think I'm like that, except when I'm doing my assignments or when I'm given (heavy) responsibility.

I tend to get so serious.So serious that I scare the shit out of me.Kasarnya bahasa.Just like the picture.Anak dara zaman sekarang, haish.I should not take things seriously but I can't help it.Semua benda tak boleh pandang ringan kan??? Maybe I should learn a thing or two from my bf, who's the most laidback person I've ever known.

1)Anyways, off the main topic, I would like to congratulate my sister who had just given birth to a baby boy.Now I'm an auntie for the second time and 'lil Sarah has a playmate.Plus, now I have to babysit 2 instead of 1.Tried to call you and Mode but no one picks up the phone.So, hope the blog will do....

2)I went to solat jemaah terawih(grammatically correct ke, anyone??) at the surau just now.A good start for my Ramadhan, this year.Hopefully, a good start to all the things coming in my life.

Ramadhan, sister's new kid and a picture of me with the finger.Wow.I'm losing it.

..dan sesungguhnya

I'm so fricking emo right now.So fricking pissed off. Got a few issues that's been clouding my head that I need to release all the 'negative energy' somewhere.

To the person who was in the public toilet before me: is it that hard to flush the toilet, like seriously???

To the squid in Mario Kart: Stop bugging me, I hate you!

To the so-called 'Don't hesitate if you need my help-friend':-
After all the ups and downs that we've been through, and the friendship or whatnot, all I get is a simple message?Like, what about a short phone call just to say 'Hello'? Like, where's courtesy??? It's always me to take initiative.I feel so damn used.Seriously.Sangat terasa ok,that is not good what you are(and did) to me.

I know this is another 'negative energy' but, may all your days black.Correct me if I'm wrong but I finally don't see why I should be so nice to you after all the shit that you put me through.

Now I wish that I'm Carrie(the character created by Stephen King, fact fans, btw)

Negativeenergy...negativeenergy...negativeenergy...negativeenergy.....


Sheesh, venting it all out here does work wonders.....

The music sounds better with you

I was meant to write this entry about a week ago but due to the time spent traveling, I only managed to write this one now.

Before I left for Melbourne and Hobart, I was shocked and in disbelief that Michael Jackson passed away.I mean, death is impending but you don't really expect him to die at such young age.Today, I spent my whole day watching the 'remembering Michael Jackson' concert and also some of the special presentation on the King of Pop.However, the saddest and the most touching part has got to be when his daughter made that heart rendering speech.

Somehow, it affected me so much.

Until now, I finally realized how I'm really, really affected by his death.Michael Jackson has been an important part of my childhood.I grew up listening to his songs, the first song that I know and memorized.....the first singer that I know.All was Michael.Why, I even remember how a 4 year old me and my brother would get all excited whenever there's a Michael Jackson's video played on TV.We would stand in front of the screen as close as possible, admiring his dance routine, trying to copy each steps but to no avail.

Michael Jackson, you are truly a great entertainer and you will definitely be missed by all.

so yesterday

I was browsing through my now-neglected Friendster account when I came across my old blog, ehem, my first blog:

'My Garbage'

April 2005-November 2007.

That was me then.I'm a whole different person now.

i can't sleep

It's 5 am in the morning and I can't sleep.I don't know why.Anyways,

'I can't wait for tomorrow

When you're gone and rain starts falling
I just sit here by the phone
Don't deny me, call me back
I'm so alone'

my fave songs at the moment.been hearing it a lot in jayjays, valley girl etc. managed to find the bloody song finally...and I can relate that to my situation right now.

go back to sleep, go back to sleep.......

Meriah makan u oll!

Semalam kan u olls, tengah akak baring-baring manja ala2 miss universe, Kak Cam pun suggest kat akak -'let's buat laksa sarawak u oll!'.Ha, akak pun ape lagi, mulalah tolong2 Kak Cam sket masak....pastu kan u olls, kiteorang pun makan lah sampai masing2 badan naik macam gajah u olls! Tapi kan, semalam, akak and Kak Cam paling sentap bila orang bawah rumah buat bising sebab kami masak u oll! Dia buat bitch dengan I, I pown buat bitch balik lah! Pastu, Kak Cam pun, dengan slang2 ompoteh dia menjerit lah-'it's a house, for god's sake!!' Wah, hebat u Kak Cam, I'm so proud of you! Lepas tu, kami report kat Hot Mama, dia pun ape lagi.... keluar belakang rumah, terus menjerit.Feeling yang marah gitew-'We'are cooking, fucker!'.Cam hanjeng orang2 bawah ni u oll! But, hebat u, Hot Mama and Kak Cam, I suka taw!

Anyways, let's change back to the normal discourse.

The next day, today, that is, I woke up around 6.30 am to help Syefah cook for the Masca NCG fund-raising thingy. I actually did the whole 3 cohorts of Roti Jala! Definitely bring back some memories and Syefah agreed-New Zealand, 649 CLV, Popo, of promises etc.....I swear by the amount of Roti Jala that I did since last year, I've become an expert(x boleh blah statement!).Why, I even compliment myself on those cute looking Roti Jala that I made and folded. Mama is surely gonna be damn proud of her little girl (lagi x boleh blah, statement)!

But what I really, really crave for are those lil Coney Dogs from A&W!

No man is an island

Last night I watched Cast Away on the television. Well, I've watched it so many times before on HBO but usually I skipped some scenes(especially if there's a MORE interesting movie next channel or cool video clips on MTV). Watching the whole movie properly this time, I finally get to be 'in the zone'.'In the zone' where I got all 'aww...poor him', 'it must be horrible to get stranded all alone' kind of feeling. Thus, I begin to wonder, if I were to get stranded on a deserted island for four years, what should I do??

Wait, what should I bring along for survival??

1. First thing first, I need to have my ipod.Plus, an ipod charger that doesn't require electricity.I need music.
2. Probably sunblock(face and body) lotion.I can't afford to get sunburned.
3. My hair serum.I can't afford to get dry locks.
4. A collection of books, to keep me busy when I'm damn bored. Academic books are excluded from the list.
5. A lifetime supply of mineral water. I don't think I can drink from those places like Chuck did.
6. My facial cleanser, toner, moisturizer, toothbrush, floss, toothpaste, soap, shampoo and conditioner. That's my basic needs.
   
7. The Swiss knife would come handy =)
8. A mobile phone.Need to get connected.
9. Last but not least, my own 'Wilson'. But I think I need a real life one, so that we'll have a 'proper' two-way conversation. Suitable people that I'm considering are Thom Yorke, Tom Hanks himself, any contestant(winner preferably) of Survivor, maybe Wilson the volleyball, Victoria Beckham(just want to see if she can be that Posh under that circumstance), Ben Affleck/Johnny Depp/Hugh Jackman/Adrian Grenier.Maybe the bf would be a good idea to help me with all the 'guy stuffs'.
   

So that's the must have list. However, after reviewing it a few times, I think I don't even deserve to get 'Cast Away' in the first place. Hahaha!

the one where she finished a 2000 words essay in a day

Peace out!

The title is sooo Friends. I miss watching the reruns on Star World.
Out of the 6 friends, I can't really settle on a favorite.Hmm, let see....I like them all but if I have to pick one(or two and three) I think I like Ross.He's so funny and a bit blur sometimes.I like Rachel too because well, she's Rachel! Last but not least, the ever sarcastic Chandler.

Yesterday, I started on Erika's analysis paper and finished it on the same day!
The older I get, the better I am with procrastination! Hahaha......

I have always wanted the 'Rachel' haircut.If only....
I admire Lady Diana Spencer,Victoria Beckham, Jackie Onassis and Audrey Hepburn's sense of style.I know, I'm soo old school...(except for Posh).
I'm craving for that pink Coach bag...Canon G10....a trip to Europe...If only, again.
Need to save some cash, need to claim the Beyonce tickets that I bought( I actually waited until the clock strikes 12pm on the pre-sale day just to get the best priced tix..note same adrenaline rush that Far get when she bought the Coldplay tix).

I'm so swamped with work that I have been neglecting my blog.I do FB but only because I want to do those silly quizzes and release all the tension from the assignments.Been reading the C1 and C2 blogs a lot because I'm dreading the day that I will become a teacher. Maybe I need to go out a bit...

I miss mum and dad like badly... =(

I need to book the accommodation for winter hols.or we won't have a place to stay ;)

There's so many things in my mind...but now I'm expressing it, all my thoughts.

Here's a thought- two of my closest buddies got the best ex ever.For still having some kind of concern and not to write off people simply.There is still some goodness in this world, apparently.So sweet.. =)

Right here, right now!

Currently,I've been eating Cheerios for breakfast.

The laptop's current wallpaper is a picture of me, Far, Dee and Ine(even though there is a long dotted line on Far's face).

Right now, I'm waiting for AZhafri to finish his assignment at KG's comp lab.

Current fave tracks from my iPod:
Daft Punk-Robot Rock
Daft Punk-Technologic
Ciara and Justin-Love, Sex and Magic
Ella Fitzgerald-Blue Skies
Thom Yorke-Analyse
Thom Yorke-Black Swan
Pussycat Dolls-Jai Ho
(Hahaha, so eclectic!).

Current workload:A lot(Assignments) =(

Right now, I'm listening to Robot Rock.
Next on my playlist is Queens of the Stone Age-The lost art of keeping a secret.

What I want to do next?Balik rumah, mandi dan tidur.

Snip, snip!

Yesterday, I got myself an instant therapy.

I haven't done this thing right here in Aussie but I did it.
Very costly but I need to do it.

Snip here, snip there and everywhere....

I just got myself a haircut(courtesy of AimanZ)!

Thanks, now I feel much better. =)

You call yourself a 'Melayu' woman??

KES 1
Me: Ala, kena la jimat-jimat macam ape tuh, sediakan tabung sebelum hujan!
Zaim: Eh, maksud kau, sediakan 'payung' instead of tabung kan??Hahahahaha
Me:Eh, betul lah, I mean dari segi kewangan (Nak cover malu)

KES 2
Me: Kelakarlah, nanti dalam pool, nampak macam agar-agar aje.
Syefah: Agar-agar??
Zaim: Obor-oborlah!Hahahahahaha!
Syefah: Hahahahaha!
Me: Eh, silap-silap.Maksudnya jellyfish.Tersasul...

KES 3
Me: You ni guna mahzab ape, huh??
Aiman: Syg, u mean mazhab ke????

KES 4
Me: Zaim, kalau kamu nak ikut, cakap lah awal2.Nanti nak book untuk 4 org.Senang sikit.Cukup karom(I think it spells like this)
Zaim: Huh, karom???Ko nak cakap korem(I think it spells like this) yek????
Me:Aah( senyum sebab malu lagi).

KES 5
Me: Zaim, ape bendanya tuh, yang buat sesuatu kearah kebaikan secara berterusan???Tawakal yek?
Zaim: Ape??Hahahahaha.Istiqamah lah!!!!!!
Aiman: Hahahahaha!

KES 6
Me: Takpe, takpe.Biar suffer dulu.Bak kata "Bersakit-sakit ke hulu, bersenang-senang ke tepian..."
Zaim and KA:Hahahahahaha.Salah la.Ulang balik kamu cakap ape tadi?Hahahahahaha!


I bet if all my BM teachers from Standard 1 to Form 5 see this, they are going to take and early retirement(or faint if they already retired).

I just don't know what to do with myself...

'....and now that we are through, I just don't know what to do.'

Currently listening to this song by The White Stripes.
Yes, I have nothing to do.The picture also has nothing to do with the song.

'Stressed' is 'desserts' spelled backwards

Found in the Cultural and Language Department of my uni;-

"Behind every great woman, is a man checking out her ass"

Now, not that the picture displayed has anything to do with the quotation.I just want to spice up the blog a bit, thought that it is a bit boring and yeah, I am damn bored(Well, it is a guy who took this pic anyways ;p).

On a more serious note, life is hectic nowadays.I got loads of commitment.All work and a bit of play.Qutmysa, student life and so on.At times like these, you definitely wish that the winter holidays would come asap and you can hibernate like a polar bear without anyone bothering you...but winter holidays mean that you need to go out and finish all the cash that you got in your bank(ie. travel).

There is so many things on my mind right now that I just couldn't find the right word to say.

Go back to your assignments...don't procrastinate, Hezrin!

"Stuck in the middle with you,"

Well,don't believe the title of this blog, entirely.Yes, I got stuck in the middle between levels in a lift.What started out to be a bad day....doing assignment until 4am, woke up late, going to class a bit late....Not to mention that my housemates and I have this wish of coming late to Erika's class(just because we couldn't be bothered to wake up early and do the readings she assigned us).

Be careful what you wish for, people would say.

So, as we sauntered our way to her class, with a purpose to waste time(take note), we decided to take the lift since we also couldn't be bothered to climb up the stairs anymore.There were 9 of us. Me, Aiman, Zaim, Ka, Syefah, Acan, Sani and two lecturers from the research department I think.We got into the lift and the least unthinkable thing happened-The lift broke down.

"Owh, don't worry, we'll just have to call the security,"said lecturer number 1, holding chocolate cupcakes.

"It's always like this, with this lift...but it should be alright,"said lecturer number 2.

And that's when our friendship is formed with the two lovely ladies.

"It shouldn't take that long," smiled lecturer number 1.

30 minutes later, we are still inside the lift.

Singing Michael Jackson songs, talking about Michael Jackson, camwhoring,talk about how early it is for us to die.........

Almost an hour and we are gasping for our breath.The lecturer actually called the security few more times before we got 'rescued'. Then everybody got their Frantelle Spring Water with 'First Aid' labeled on it.How cool is that?Then we went to Erika's class, to be greeted with a clap and "You survived!"

And that is the story of the day.Hahahaha.
So be careful for what you wish for.....

'...everyone has dreams but only few realise them...'

"...everyone has dreams but only few realize them, make cowards...the rest of us"
-Paolo Coelho's Veronika Decides to Die-

One of my favorite books from one of my favorite authors is immortalised in a film.
I just want to die right now.

'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows'

One of my favourite song right now,somehow it touched me.
Nak boyfriend macam John Legend!!!(Hahahaha.Sorry a certain MR.AZ... ;P)

Please, stop whatever you're doing to me...

Sometimes, no matter how much effort you've put in something, things will just not work.

Often you've been told that "you care too much.it's not like they feel the same,"

I tried to please everyone, care about whatever they are doing and such....that sometimes, I neglected the person that cares for me the most.I don't want anyone to get hurt but sometimes I get hurt, in the end.

Am I some kind of person that you look for when none of your 'cool people' with you?Only to write me off when you've found them again?Am I some kind of disposable?

To be honest, I'm so sick and tired of this.This is not the first time nor will it be the last.I guess from now on, it's best that I do my own thing and you do yours.I'll try not to put others before myself for people can be so selfish.I need to break my curse of "care about people too much".Then, I would not feel so let down by you, my friend.

I really value all my friends.Don't make me regret saying that.