so yesterday

I was browsing through my now-neglected Friendster account when I came across my old blog, ehem, my first blog:

'My Garbage'

April 2005-November 2007.

That was me then.I'm a whole different person now.

'I can't wait for tomorrow...'

He's coming back this Friday!
=)

i can't sleep

It's 5 am in the morning and I can't sleep.I don't know why.Anyways,

'I can't wait for tomorrow

When you're gone and rain starts falling
I just sit here by the phone
Don't deny me, call me back
I'm so alone'

my fave songs at the moment.been hearing it a lot in jayjays, valley girl etc. managed to find the bloody song finally...and I can relate that to my situation right now.

go back to sleep, go back to sleep.......

Anyone can play guitar

I've always wanted to play the guitar.I mean, it would be weird if someone who's into the rock genre to say that he or she doesn't want to play guitar.

I've always been the odd one in my family.I liked rock song since I guess when when dad introduced me to The Police when I was a kid.By the time I was 7, I was bopping my head to Nirvana's Smells Like Teen Spirit and Metallica's Enter Sandman. Over the years, my fave or interest in rock genre shifted from hard-metal-to grunge-to-nu-metal before I finally found my real identity: Those stuffs by Radiohead, Coldplay, Queens of the Stone Age, Incubus when I was in upper secondary.

Nevertheless, I can't play a single instrument of this genre and it has been my fantasy since I was 8 years old to play a guitar: electric guitar in particular.The closest that I'd get to this instrument of mine back then, is whenever I am in the shower or in front of the mirror...playing 'air guitar'.I've always had a great deal of respect or awe for anyone who is damn bloody good at playing guitar.

I wanted to do the 'leg kicking' like AC/DC.
Or burn and smash my guitar like Hendrix did.

I can't simply because I can't play the bloody thing.
I tried to make my mum send me to those fancy 'Yamaha' guitar class(just like Hannah did) because I want to play guitar.At this age, I had given up because I'm too old to learn how to play guitar, I think.I don't want to start with the acoustic one, just give me the electric ones!!(and bass too).

Somehow, my perception towards that changed yesterday. Just like that song by Radiohead-Anyone can play guitar.I did and I love it.Even though I was struggling adjusting my fingers with strumming and watching the screen, I managed to score as high as 99%.I am playing songs by Kiss, Pat Benatar and also Coldplay! I can play Yellow and Violet Hill (still struggling with God Put a Smile...).I even had 'guitar battle' with Tom Morello! The 'Tom Morello, y'all!

Yes, I played Guitar Hero 3 and I'm addicted to it.

My childhood fantasy does come true, even though it just happen in the living room with Guitar Hero, only.

more than meets the eye, after all

I used to watch Transformers(not the movie) religiously when I was young a girl.That was one of my favourite cartoons other than Ninja Turtles.However, I always have this dissatisfaction with the series.I always thought that whoever created this show must be crazy or something because of one thing:

The Autobots(the good guy) is so not cool compared to the Decepticons(the bad guy).

I mean, in the mind of a young kid, Decepticons should be the good guy.They are way cooler.Fighter jets etc. True definition of 'transformer' whereas Autobots are plain boring with trailer, police car etc.
It should be the other way round, that was what I thought.I asked my dad once and he just said "Well, there's simply a reason to it," Not really answering the question of a curious child, right?

I think I probably know why that it is the way it is.
I guess doesn't mean if a thing is pretty, cool or great it is positive while everything that is bad or ugly is negative after all.Maybe in a way, the producers want to do the whole 'anti-hero' on the Autobots.Well, they are what I would think boring but they are the good guys.They have a nice heart(if there's one inside of 'em').

I guess in life it tells you that there is more than meets the eye, after all.First impression doesn't always come right.When we thought someone to be snobbish, often it turns out to be the other way round.Don't judge a book by its cover.Although I do get fooled by the cover of a book sometimes.You won't know about something(or someone) until you open and read the book. Someone maybe pretty from the outside but underneath that person is the most ugliest creature. I know someone who often gets into trouble, looks like someone who is going to rob a bank but got the softest heart ever.

Jadi,pengajaranya ialah- jangan suka buat tanggapan salah terhadap orang berdasarkan paras rupa.