Recently, I'm bombarded with a lot of negative energy-hence, the few emo posts. If I can conclude how my early 2010 is, I pretty much can say that it sucked to the max. I just wanna sit at home all day and sleep.At least when I sleep, the problem will dissolve away, even for awhile.
Other than sleeping myself away, I should thank god for making my life busy.I joined an exclusive book club and am on my way finishing the 2nd book. So far, I love the book and I have to admit that it does ignite my passion for reading again. A passion that died during my 2 years stay in Australia because of workloads of assignments and commitment to societies and stuffs. In addition, I have a part-time job. Teaching English and Science for Year 6, Form 1,2 and 3 students. I earn not much but the experience and learning process that I value the most. Why learning? Simply because I have to read Science books again before every class. Yes, I need to refresh memories and know the content of my teaching.A teacher should not be an empty vessel and teach the students.
I also do mentoring without pay. I participated myself in the academic tutor thingy recently...and I got myself 2 juniors as my tutee(or mantee, depends which terms you use). Hurm, did I mention that me and my girls helped a bit with the blue house cheerleading team? I swore to myself not to go near those things again..but hey, I spoke too soon. We helped a few bits of their routine but that's the most of it. Those girls(and guy) pretty much doing good on their own.....
..and as I'm writing this post, I actually have to go and prepare lunch already. Some of you already heard the story of how the maid ran off with her bf recently, jumping the ship, leaving us on our own. Now, I'm the part-time maid, serving ,my mum and dad this 1 week holiday. I do almost every housework in the house.Sweep/mop the floor, prepare bfast/lunch and dinner, look after mum's plants, look after the cat..and the list goes on. I so can feel that the domestic goddess in me is unleashed. My mum asked me yesterday whether she should employ a new one and this is my reply "There's no need.I do the housework 10 times better than the maid.Hurmph," and my dad just laughed as I did my second round of mopping.
From what I can conclude, keeping busy is the best way to take your mind off things. Definitely. When I tutor people and such, I learn a few things as well. Like, I HAVE to learn Science all over again every single Sunday and I learnt not to open the front door when the cat is outside the cage. Life is one learning process. Life-long learning.Haha, I'm talking rubbish now. Must be the side effects.
Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
-John Lennon-
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Friday, February 19, 2010
Friday, December 11, 2009
what is life?
You have a car and you decided to embark on a journey.You have picked your destination.
And so, you do the preparation, check the car's condition..buy some traveling essential that might be useful in your journey and off you go. You make plans to use which route, which 'mini pit stops' that you would make throughout your journey, places that you planned to visit etc.
You will be going there alone for more adventure or simply bring along a friend or two to keep you company throughout your journey. Sometimes, all good things in life are those shared right?
And off you go. Somewhere along your journey you get tired but you need to keep going. Sometimes you feel like giving up but your companion(s) might give you some motivational words or offer to take turns to drive. Just as that famous Beatles song goes, you'll get by with a 'little help from your friends'.Somewhere in between, you might came across a hitch-hiker and maybe new friends at the R&R or the gas station..who knows??
And along the way, you meet all sorts of people.selfish drivers or speed demons.those kind of people.People who take advantage of your kindness and decided to rob you. Falling out with your companion(s). Maybe you decided that hitch-hiker in your car is not so nice after all and a psychopath. Maybe the fallout with your friend gets so serious that he or she decided to part ways with you.Maybe you will have to go back at the bus stop to apologize or patch things up because the journey seems much better with them...
Maybe along the way you get lost and someone help you out. you might even find an alternative route that takes you to your destination with less hassle or faster...or maybe the route will take you to another destination. A place that you intend to go but eventually, you'll thank god that you found the place.You might even involved in some kind of accident-either you in the hospital and take time to recover before continuing your journey or your journey just ends there.Whatever it is, your journey will not be as what you have had in mind and it teach you a thing or two about yourself, people around you, the environment-or life in general.
Then, life is a journey. You'll never know what's coming ahead or how bumpy can things can get.
But most importantly, things don't always go as the way we planned.
And so, you do the preparation, check the car's condition..buy some traveling essential that might be useful in your journey and off you go. You make plans to use which route, which 'mini pit stops' that you would make throughout your journey, places that you planned to visit etc.
You will be going there alone for more adventure or simply bring along a friend or two to keep you company throughout your journey. Sometimes, all good things in life are those shared right?
And off you go. Somewhere along your journey you get tired but you need to keep going. Sometimes you feel like giving up but your companion(s) might give you some motivational words or offer to take turns to drive. Just as that famous Beatles song goes, you'll get by with a 'little help from your friends'.Somewhere in between, you might came across a hitch-hiker and maybe new friends at the R&R or the gas station..who knows??
And along the way, you meet all sorts of people.selfish drivers or speed demons.those kind of people.People who take advantage of your kindness and decided to rob you. Falling out with your companion(s). Maybe you decided that hitch-hiker in your car is not so nice after all and a psychopath. Maybe the fallout with your friend gets so serious that he or she decided to part ways with you.Maybe you will have to go back at the bus stop to apologize or patch things up because the journey seems much better with them...
Maybe along the way you get lost and someone help you out. you might even find an alternative route that takes you to your destination with less hassle or faster...or maybe the route will take you to another destination. A place that you intend to go but eventually, you'll thank god that you found the place.You might even involved in some kind of accident-either you in the hospital and take time to recover before continuing your journey or your journey just ends there.Whatever it is, your journey will not be as what you have had in mind and it teach you a thing or two about yourself, people around you, the environment-or life in general.
Then, life is a journey. You'll never know what's coming ahead or how bumpy can things can get.
But most importantly, things don't always go as the way we planned.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
(Nice dream)
From my observations of my fellow comrades, I can conclude there's a mixture of feelings upon the end of our 2 years abroad.
Some can't wait to go back home-meet all the relatives, boyfriend/girlfriend, new addition to their family, friends and eat all those food. Some have a better social life back home.
Some have mixed feelings-they can't wait to go back and yet they will miss life abroad so dearly...
..and some just don't want to go back home. At all.
Why do we dread to see that day coming? For some, life is much better overseas. Life is more comfortable.The scenery is magnificent.The shopping is heaven. For some, it might be due to the fact that their 'honeymoon' period is over. Life without parental restriction-no curfew, do all the things that the religion forbids..just because they won't get any raised eyebrow from the so-called narrow minded society that we have back home.There's plenty of reasons. It could be that one leads back to the normal life, no more adventurous life...or it could be the transportation system. For whatever the reason is, good or bad, all good things must come to end, eventually. As the saying goes, 'Nothing lasts forever'.
There's pros and cons. I would love to go abroad again but just for a short stay. A holiday maybe. There's a lot of thing that I will surely miss. I'll miss how frequent the public transport is in Brisbane. It sure looks like a comparison of heaven and hell when I thought of my public transport experience in Malaysia. I'll miss how I don't have to rush to the library to get all the books. There's plenty for everyone, including procrastinators. I love the fact that the people are more laidback and not afraid to be themselves. If I were given the choice, I may want to delay my stay or miss my flight but I can't.Life must go on. I had my 2 (almost) years experience and now I'm done. Back to square one. Back to that college near UM.Back to the 24 hours eateries. Another chapter in my life. Another interesting story to tell the grandchildren.
My 2 years stay here taught me a lot of things. Life, relationship, educational...you name it. I've changed throughout my stay here. Everyone changes.Everything changes. There's a lot of adaptation to do once I'm back in Malaysia. Especially the wheather.
Some can't wait to go back home-meet all the relatives, boyfriend/girlfriend, new addition to their family, friends and eat all those food. Some have a better social life back home.
Some have mixed feelings-they can't wait to go back and yet they will miss life abroad so dearly...
..and some just don't want to go back home. At all.
Why do we dread to see that day coming? For some, life is much better overseas. Life is more comfortable.The scenery is magnificent.The shopping is heaven. For some, it might be due to the fact that their 'honeymoon' period is over. Life without parental restriction-no curfew, do all the things that the religion forbids..just because they won't get any raised eyebrow from the so-called narrow minded society that we have back home.There's plenty of reasons. It could be that one leads back to the normal life, no more adventurous life...or it could be the transportation system. For whatever the reason is, good or bad, all good things must come to end, eventually. As the saying goes, 'Nothing lasts forever'.
There's pros and cons. I would love to go abroad again but just for a short stay. A holiday maybe. There's a lot of thing that I will surely miss. I'll miss how frequent the public transport is in Brisbane. It sure looks like a comparison of heaven and hell when I thought of my public transport experience in Malaysia. I'll miss how I don't have to rush to the library to get all the books. There's plenty for everyone, including procrastinators. I love the fact that the people are more laidback and not afraid to be themselves. If I were given the choice, I may want to delay my stay or miss my flight but I can't.Life must go on. I had my 2 (almost) years experience and now I'm done. Back to square one. Back to that college near UM.Back to the 24 hours eateries. Another chapter in my life. Another interesting story to tell the grandchildren.
My 2 years stay here taught me a lot of things. Life, relationship, educational...you name it. I've changed throughout my stay here. Everyone changes.Everything changes. There's a lot of adaptation to do once I'm back in Malaysia. Especially the wheather.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
all that giltters
I don't really understand why some people would dump their bf/gf just because they are not 'rich' enough.
Well, generally you would think that it only applies to girls but guys use this lame excuse too.
All the girls would always have this perception that some rich Brunei prince would come knocking on their door at say 'Come with me, I'll get you that jet-setting lifestyle where you'll be able buying all the LVs and bling-bling'.Yeah, right.If only miracle would happen.
The thing is, nobody knows what the future holds.Anything is possible. A primary school drop out can be way more successful than someone with MBA(true story, btw). A rich person can go poor in a blink of eye. Is it fair to dump someone just because they can't afford to buy you all the fancy things in life??Even when they are 10 times better than that rich kid that you are longing to marry?Well, think again, honey.Doesn't mean someone is not successful now, they won't be successful later.Because nobody knows-rezeki orang siapa yang tahu, kan?"
All that glitters is not always gold, y'know..
Well, generally you would think that it only applies to girls but guys use this lame excuse too.
All the girls would always have this perception that some rich Brunei prince would come knocking on their door at say 'Come with me, I'll get you that jet-setting lifestyle where you'll be able buying all the LVs and bling-bling'.Yeah, right.If only miracle would happen.
The thing is, nobody knows what the future holds.Anything is possible. A primary school drop out can be way more successful than someone with MBA(true story, btw). A rich person can go poor in a blink of eye. Is it fair to dump someone just because they can't afford to buy you all the fancy things in life??Even when they are 10 times better than that rich kid that you are longing to marry?Well, think again, honey.Doesn't mean someone is not successful now, they won't be successful later.Because nobody knows-rezeki orang siapa yang tahu, kan?"
All that glitters is not always gold, y'know..
Friday, October 23, 2009
Mesej ringkas yang padat, ketat & sendat.
I think that you're a victim of a something that people would define as 'culture shock'.
How long, I wonder?
How long, I wonder?
Friday, October 16, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
more than meets the eye, after all
I used to watch Transformers(not the movie) religiously when I was young a girl.That was one of my favourite cartoons other than Ninja Turtles.However, I always have this dissatisfaction with the series.I always thought that whoever created this show must be crazy or something because of one thing:
The Autobots(the good guy) is so not cool compared to the Decepticons(the bad guy).
I mean, in the mind of a young kid, Decepticons should be the good guy.They are way cooler.Fighter jets etc. True definition of 'transformer' whereas Autobots are plain boring with trailer, police car etc.
It should be the other way round, that was what I thought.I asked my dad once and he just said "Well, there's simply a reason to it," Not really answering the question of a curious child, right?
I think I probably know why that it is the way it is.
I guess doesn't mean if a thing is pretty, cool or great it is positive while everything that is bad or ugly is negative after all.Maybe in a way, the producers want to do the whole 'anti-hero' on the Autobots.Well, they are what I would think boring but they are the good guys.They have a nice heart(if there's one inside of 'em').
I guess in life it tells you that there is more than meets the eye, after all.First impression doesn't always come right.When we thought someone to be snobbish, often it turns out to be the other way round.Don't judge a book by its cover.Although I do get fooled by the cover of a book sometimes.You won't know about something(or someone) until you open and read the book. Someone maybe pretty from the outside but underneath that person is the most ugliest creature. I know someone who often gets into trouble, looks like someone who is going to rob a bank but got the softest heart ever.
Jadi,pengajaranya ialah- jangan suka buat tanggapan salah terhadap orang berdasarkan paras rupa.
The Autobots(the good guy) is so not cool compared to the Decepticons(the bad guy).
I mean, in the mind of a young kid, Decepticons should be the good guy.They are way cooler.Fighter jets etc. True definition of 'transformer' whereas Autobots are plain boring with trailer, police car etc.
It should be the other way round, that was what I thought.I asked my dad once and he just said "Well, there's simply a reason to it," Not really answering the question of a curious child, right?
I think I probably know why that it is the way it is.
I guess doesn't mean if a thing is pretty, cool or great it is positive while everything that is bad or ugly is negative after all.Maybe in a way, the producers want to do the whole 'anti-hero' on the Autobots.Well, they are what I would think boring but they are the good guys.They have a nice heart(if there's one inside of 'em').
I guess in life it tells you that there is more than meets the eye, after all.First impression doesn't always come right.When we thought someone to be snobbish, often it turns out to be the other way round.Don't judge a book by its cover.Although I do get fooled by the cover of a book sometimes.You won't know about something(or someone) until you open and read the book. Someone maybe pretty from the outside but underneath that person is the most ugliest creature. I know someone who often gets into trouble, looks like someone who is going to rob a bank but got the softest heart ever.
Jadi,pengajaranya ialah- jangan suka buat tanggapan salah terhadap orang berdasarkan paras rupa.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Down with the sickness
The weather change recently is a bit haywire.So does the health of everyone.It's a bit frustrating like, all the time when it's raining everyday.Summer is over and autumn has arrived.....it's not that cold in Brisbane but it's definitely getting colder.I'm wearing skirt but I still wear cardigan.How's that?
Oh well, due to the weather change, fever, cold or sore throat spread like some kind of epidemic here.It's like today is someone's turn and tomorrow is my turn and few hours later is some poor soul's turn. I actually got a fever a day before my presentation and until this day, I have a runny nose that annoys me to the max, especially when I'm sleeping(Everytime I go to sleep, it's like the oxygen supply is going to get cut off or something...)Not to mention the profuse amount of Vicks that I inhaled and massaged onto my nose!And those lozenges!!
During times like these, you wish you take back your words such as "Damn, it's too hot, when the autumn is going to come?", or count your blessings of having a good health.Things like these make you appreciate the things that you take for granted.Isn't it ironic how sickness or tragedy make people appreciate things around them better?
Oh, the beauty of life... =)
Oh well, due to the weather change, fever, cold or sore throat spread like some kind of epidemic here.It's like today is someone's turn and tomorrow is my turn and few hours later is some poor soul's turn. I actually got a fever a day before my presentation and until this day, I have a runny nose that annoys me to the max, especially when I'm sleeping(Everytime I go to sleep, it's like the oxygen supply is going to get cut off or something...)Not to mention the profuse amount of Vicks that I inhaled and massaged onto my nose!And those lozenges!!
During times like these, you wish you take back your words such as "Damn, it's too hot, when the autumn is going to come?", or count your blessings of having a good health.Things like these make you appreciate the things that you take for granted.Isn't it ironic how sickness or tragedy make people appreciate things around them better?
Oh, the beauty of life... =)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Private and confidential.Period.
Recently, two of my favourite blogger, Syefah and Farizah wrote about privacy.Oh well, I'm not going to touch on the same issue but it definitely has something to do with it.....
I guess that everybody needs their privacy once in awhile.Yes, I admit that I do enjoy being with a crowd of people now and then but sometimes I crave my own privacy.I'm a private person.There are certain things about me that I'm comfortable to share with the whole world but there are also certain things that I prefer to keep to myself.Sometimes, when I have to fill in some particulars that require me to describe myself in detail, I prefer not to.I always have this fear of 'giving too much info to people' when I have to.So I keep it short and simple.If someone interested to know me, let it be the appropriate way.Be my friend.Then you'll know me.
However, there are certain part of me that I still keep to myself even when you are friends with me.Except those that I consider to be in my 'Circle of Trust'.These people are the people that I'm comfortable to share secrets or whatnot.My confidante.I'm quite careful when it comes to my privacy....I guess that's probably because some people betrayed my trust and all.So I become more private in order to avoid getting hurt again.
From what I've said previously, I have to admit that there's still a certain part of me that I keep private while writing this blog.My fear of letting people know my thoughts and all get the better of me again.Sometimes, I write my blog meticulously in order not too give too much info.Sometimes, there are things that I need to keep to myself and not express it all through my blog or Facebook. Let me keep my private life, erm, private.I'm not the type of person who write lovey-dovey stuffs in my blog, do lovey-dovey shout outs or Facebook status, upload heaps of pictures of me and my boyfriend going out together or whatnot.Some people comfortable doing so but to each of his or her own....maybe because I'm an introvert at times.
From what I've written, I'm a private person.However, not it is not so private anymore that I'm a private person.Hahaha.
Let me tell you one thing though, my favourite place in a house is the bathroom.That is the place where anyone can get 'instant' privacy, right?Not only that you shower and do stuffs there.It's also a good place to cry without being seen. ;)
Now that's not so private and confidential anymore, huh?
I guess that everybody needs their privacy once in awhile.Yes, I admit that I do enjoy being with a crowd of people now and then but sometimes I crave my own privacy.I'm a private person.There are certain things about me that I'm comfortable to share with the whole world but there are also certain things that I prefer to keep to myself.Sometimes, when I have to fill in some particulars that require me to describe myself in detail, I prefer not to.I always have this fear of 'giving too much info to people' when I have to.So I keep it short and simple.If someone interested to know me, let it be the appropriate way.Be my friend.Then you'll know me.
However, there are certain part of me that I still keep to myself even when you are friends with me.Except those that I consider to be in my 'Circle of Trust'.These people are the people that I'm comfortable to share secrets or whatnot.My confidante.I'm quite careful when it comes to my privacy....I guess that's probably because some people betrayed my trust and all.So I become more private in order to avoid getting hurt again.
From what I've said previously, I have to admit that there's still a certain part of me that I keep private while writing this blog.My fear of letting people know my thoughts and all get the better of me again.Sometimes, I write my blog meticulously in order not too give too much info.Sometimes, there are things that I need to keep to myself and not express it all through my blog or Facebook. Let me keep my private life, erm, private.I'm not the type of person who write lovey-dovey stuffs in my blog, do lovey-dovey shout outs or Facebook status, upload heaps of pictures of me and my boyfriend going out together or whatnot.Some people comfortable doing so but to each of his or her own....maybe because I'm an introvert at times.
From what I've written, I'm a private person.However, not it is not so private anymore that I'm a private person.Hahaha.
Let me tell you one thing though, my favourite place in a house is the bathroom.That is the place where anyone can get 'instant' privacy, right?Not only that you shower and do stuffs there.It's also a good place to cry without being seen. ;)
Now that's not so private and confidential anymore, huh?
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Truth hurts, but being lied to hurts more.
"....nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way"
Kanye West feat. Adam Lavigne, 'Heard 'em say'
Sometimes, we lie to cover things up.Thing is, when we lie, we have to create more lies in order to cover up the previous lies.That's when the hardest part comes in.When all your lies are revealed.When you are caught tangled up in your own web of lies.
That's when people lose their faith and trust in you.
Even when you tell people the truth, there is still doubt in every single words that you say.
Truth hurts but sometimes, you need to know the truth.
Just say it.No need to lie.Tak perlu menipu.
It hurts but it may be the only way"
Kanye West feat. Adam Lavigne, 'Heard 'em say'
Sometimes, we lie to cover things up.Thing is, when we lie, we have to create more lies in order to cover up the previous lies.That's when the hardest part comes in.When all your lies are revealed.When you are caught tangled up in your own web of lies.
That's when people lose their faith and trust in you.
Even when you tell people the truth, there is still doubt in every single words that you say.
Truth hurts but sometimes, you need to know the truth.
Just say it.No need to lie.Tak perlu menipu.
Friday, January 16, 2009
A matter of Mars and Venus
It's not fair to say that '... it is tough to be a woman'.
Yes, being a woman is tough.Once, my friends and I discussed that us girls have a tough life then the male counterparts.There are a few things that a girl has to go through in her life, which comes in the package of being a female.Such things are;
-A girl has to go through PMS and stuff, water retention etc.Sometimes, we are excused for acting all 'melodramatic' or 'plain weird' just because we are having 'one of those days'.Period pain sucks, that's the truth but hey, us girls also don't enjoy the emotional side effects of it too.....
-It is a truth universally acknowledge that only women give birth, not man.So, we have to carry another life for 9 months, gaining heaps of weight, looking uber unattractive during the 9 months and also after the birth, endure pain during childbirth.Men don't have to go through all that....Prior to that, a woman also has perform her duty as a wife and also mother, looking after her family while we also want to achieve success in carrier.It is tough being a woman these days.....
....but, let's have both sides be heard.It is tough too being a guy these days, I think.Such difficulties are;-
-It is also a truth universally acknowledge that a guy must 'woo' the girl(well, these days, it works both ways...).In that process, the guy must have at least a sufficient amount of cash.This is because they need the money to take their girlfriends out for dinner(although some people happily go dutch in this case), pamper them with cute or expensive gifts and whatnot...later, the guy has to save some money too for weddings(Mostly marriages in the Malay culture, i think) and later also when they have a family.They work damn hard to make ends meet in order to provide a better life for their wife and children.Some guys might be lucky that they earn more and have a comfortable working environment.For some, they wish that they can provide more for their family.....
So, i do think that it is tough for both genders actually. There's pros and cons of being Mars and Venus.
Yes, being a woman is tough.Once, my friends and I discussed that us girls have a tough life then the male counterparts.There are a few things that a girl has to go through in her life, which comes in the package of being a female.Such things are;
-A girl has to go through PMS and stuff, water retention etc.Sometimes, we are excused for acting all 'melodramatic' or 'plain weird' just because we are having 'one of those days'.Period pain sucks, that's the truth but hey, us girls also don't enjoy the emotional side effects of it too.....
-It is a truth universally acknowledge that only women give birth, not man.So, we have to carry another life for 9 months, gaining heaps of weight, looking uber unattractive during the 9 months and also after the birth, endure pain during childbirth.Men don't have to go through all that....Prior to that, a woman also has perform her duty as a wife and also mother, looking after her family while we also want to achieve success in carrier.It is tough being a woman these days.....
....but, let's have both sides be heard.It is tough too being a guy these days, I think.Such difficulties are;-
-It is also a truth universally acknowledge that a guy must 'woo' the girl(well, these days, it works both ways...).In that process, the guy must have at least a sufficient amount of cash.This is because they need the money to take their girlfriends out for dinner(although some people happily go dutch in this case), pamper them with cute or expensive gifts and whatnot...later, the guy has to save some money too for weddings(Mostly marriages in the Malay culture, i think) and later also when they have a family.They work damn hard to make ends meet in order to provide a better life for their wife and children.Some guys might be lucky that they earn more and have a comfortable working environment.For some, they wish that they can provide more for their family.....
So, i do think that it is tough for both genders actually. There's pros and cons of being Mars and Venus.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
The path not taken...due to certain circumstances.
This morning, I went for a jog around my housing area.Woke up early today, around 6.50 and all equipped with my sneakers and ipod, I'm all ready to go and burn those calories.
Damn, I'm so not fit anymore and it was damn tiring.
I actually was starting to look like Forrest Gump, when he is running all over America with no apparent reason.I was running and running.
There was some 'pit stops'.I had to tie my stupid shoe laces(which reminds me that I need to get new sneakers soon...), and of course, taking a five minute break because I'm that close to fainting.That was how unfit I am.After abandoning gym and whatnot, especially after Raya.
There was time also when I was running, enjoying the scenery around my house, where there are...obstacles.There's dogs lying on the street, which forced me to go back and jog to another road, dogs barking from one of those houses...and there's this one time, an auntie actually warned me not to continue jogging down the road because '...ada anjing kat depan!'.Haha.
So, my jog today was full of erm, surprises and also obstacle.But I still keep on jogging until I reached home again.
This shows that in life, if you want something, you have to keep going in order to get it.Life is just like a path,a road, street or avenue...depending what you want to call it.There will be a few setbacks on your way to your destination or reaching a goal(in my case, it was the dog)...and you might have to turn around or look for another path.But, the rule is, keep going.Keep going no matter how tough the journey is.It's going to be tricky, but it is going to be worthy.So that's life for you.Not as smooth as you want to...full of surprises and setbacks.
If I'm going for a jog again, I know which road I should avoid now. =)
Damn, I'm so not fit anymore and it was damn tiring.
I actually was starting to look like Forrest Gump, when he is running all over America with no apparent reason.I was running and running.
There was some 'pit stops'.I had to tie my stupid shoe laces(which reminds me that I need to get new sneakers soon...), and of course, taking a five minute break because I'm that close to fainting.That was how unfit I am.After abandoning gym and whatnot, especially after Raya.
There was time also when I was running, enjoying the scenery around my house, where there are...obstacles.There's dogs lying on the street, which forced me to go back and jog to another road, dogs barking from one of those houses...and there's this one time, an auntie actually warned me not to continue jogging down the road because '...ada anjing kat depan!'.Haha.
So, my jog today was full of erm, surprises and also obstacle.But I still keep on jogging until I reached home again.
This shows that in life, if you want something, you have to keep going in order to get it.Life is just like a path,a road, street or avenue...depending what you want to call it.There will be a few setbacks on your way to your destination or reaching a goal(in my case, it was the dog)...and you might have to turn around or look for another path.But, the rule is, keep going.Keep going no matter how tough the journey is.It's going to be tricky, but it is going to be worthy.So that's life for you.Not as smooth as you want to...full of surprises and setbacks.
If I'm going for a jog again, I know which road I should avoid now. =)
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Lost and found: Part 1.
Today I went to KL after quite sometime....Things still remain the same, while some people and the environment around me is changing. Followed my mum to Selayang before picking up my niece as my sister need some 'peaceful' time to study for her exams.....
Like I mentioned above, everything is still the same.The buildings, the roads....nothing has changed that much.I was engrossed in 'sight-seeing' until I saw a Muslim's burial site.Not just like any other, this one has some sentimental values to me.You see, my grandfather (my father's father) was buried there. And I don't know the guy that much. I've seen him once, and that's my first and also last.I don't know him that much as a person, but I do know his name. And that's the only thing that make me feel attached to that name. That I'm his granddaughter.....I don't really remember him, until today, that is.
Later, I went to my sister's house. Just like what I had expected before, my niece has already forgotten about me after not seeing me for several months. My brother-in law tried to mention things that we did together (I babysit my niece for almost 3 months last year, hence the attachment) but to no avail. She doesn't remember me at all.And it's kinda sad. I guess, that's natural in life. To forget things(dunno if i'm making any sense here.am talking in gibberish).
Today I found some of the things that was lost from my memories, and some people also found something that was gone a long time a go from their memories(my niece, in this case).That's how life goes, I guess....
Like I mentioned above, everything is still the same.The buildings, the roads....nothing has changed that much.I was engrossed in 'sight-seeing' until I saw a Muslim's burial site.Not just like any other, this one has some sentimental values to me.You see, my grandfather (my father's father) was buried there. And I don't know the guy that much. I've seen him once, and that's my first and also last.I don't know him that much as a person, but I do know his name. And that's the only thing that make me feel attached to that name. That I'm his granddaughter.....I don't really remember him, until today, that is.
Later, I went to my sister's house. Just like what I had expected before, my niece has already forgotten about me after not seeing me for several months. My brother-in law tried to mention things that we did together (I babysit my niece for almost 3 months last year, hence the attachment) but to no avail. She doesn't remember me at all.And it's kinda sad. I guess, that's natural in life. To forget things(dunno if i'm making any sense here.am talking in gibberish).
Today I found some of the things that was lost from my memories, and some people also found something that was gone a long time a go from their memories(my niece, in this case).That's how life goes, I guess....
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Memories.
A few minutes ago, while browsing through some of the pictures in my laptop, something has crossed my mind. These pictures represent millions or billions of happy or sad memories. What happens if I delete all of these pictures?Will the memories go away or will it still be in your mind?Playing over and over again, like a mini movie?
When we looked back at some of the moments in life that we captured in a photograph, we learn things about ourselves. How much we've changed, how different we looked like back then. Old friends that make us wonder, "Whatever happened to A??", places or events that occurred before, while and after the picture is taken....or simply things about yourself that you've never realized before.
Those memories are sweet and beautiful sometimes, yet, there are painful ones too.
When you look at a photograph of a painful past, sure, you can simply delete it. Just click 'Delete' and it will be gone forever. Just send it to the Recycle Bin and you'll never see it again. But it's not as simple as that.
There are still photographs of the remaining memories in your mind.
Once, it crossed my mind that, "Gosh, If only I could reprogram my head like the computer, then I'll get over it.If only I could do that.Erase those memories."
In fact, it sounds like that Jim Carrey movie now, Eternal something, something?I don't remember the name of it, but I do know that in that movie, Jim's character wants to erase all of the memories he had with his girlfriend or something. Just because it's too painful for him to think about it. But that's just fiction, right???
If only we can do that...If only.....
However, not so long ago, someone managed to knock some senses into me.It helped me to change my negative view of this matter. "You may need those memories.It may be painful, but trust me you'll need it. If not for you, it's for someone else.One day, you'll be needing it to help others, tell your stories and lessons that you've learned...so that other people won't repeat the same mistake again,"
And then, I see it in a clearer view. It's true. Each memories that we ever experienced tells us a lot of things, it helped us to grow, to be a better person...much wiser.It's ok to create bad ones, because at the end of the day, those are the one who's going to teach you about life.
If you ever think of an old memory that make you cry, it's ok, you can cry. But later, you'll smile because you know that what's past is past, and it can't be undone,no matter how hard you try....and you deserve to smile.And create more happy memories.
=)
When we looked back at some of the moments in life that we captured in a photograph, we learn things about ourselves. How much we've changed, how different we looked like back then. Old friends that make us wonder, "Whatever happened to A??", places or events that occurred before, while and after the picture is taken....or simply things about yourself that you've never realized before.
Those memories are sweet and beautiful sometimes, yet, there are painful ones too.
When you look at a photograph of a painful past, sure, you can simply delete it. Just click 'Delete' and it will be gone forever. Just send it to the Recycle Bin and you'll never see it again. But it's not as simple as that.
There are still photographs of the remaining memories in your mind.
Once, it crossed my mind that, "Gosh, If only I could reprogram my head like the computer, then I'll get over it.If only I could do that.Erase those memories."
In fact, it sounds like that Jim Carrey movie now, Eternal something, something?I don't remember the name of it, but I do know that in that movie, Jim's character wants to erase all of the memories he had with his girlfriend or something. Just because it's too painful for him to think about it. But that's just fiction, right???
If only we can do that...If only.....
However, not so long ago, someone managed to knock some senses into me.It helped me to change my negative view of this matter. "You may need those memories.It may be painful, but trust me you'll need it. If not for you, it's for someone else.One day, you'll be needing it to help others, tell your stories and lessons that you've learned...so that other people won't repeat the same mistake again,"
And then, I see it in a clearer view. It's true. Each memories that we ever experienced tells us a lot of things, it helped us to grow, to be a better person...much wiser.It's ok to create bad ones, because at the end of the day, those are the one who's going to teach you about life.
If you ever think of an old memory that make you cry, it's ok, you can cry. But later, you'll smile because you know that what's past is past, and it can't be undone,no matter how hard you try....and you deserve to smile.And create more happy memories.
=)
Monday, September 8, 2008
Mistakes.
Something that I found interesting at a gas station, while on my way from Christchurch to Queenstown in July.
Just a thought.
=)
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