more than meets the eye, after all

I used to watch Transformers(not the movie) religiously when I was young a girl.That was one of my favourite cartoons other than Ninja Turtles.However, I always have this dissatisfaction with the series.I always thought that whoever created this show must be crazy or something because of one thing:

The Autobots(the good guy) is so not cool compared to the Decepticons(the bad guy).

I mean, in the mind of a young kid, Decepticons should be the good guy.They are way cooler.Fighter jets etc. True definition of 'transformer' whereas Autobots are plain boring with trailer, police car etc.
It should be the other way round, that was what I thought.I asked my dad once and he just said "Well, there's simply a reason to it," Not really answering the question of a curious child, right?

I think I probably know why that it is the way it is.
I guess doesn't mean if a thing is pretty, cool or great it is positive while everything that is bad or ugly is negative after all.Maybe in a way, the producers want to do the whole 'anti-hero' on the Autobots.Well, they are what I would think boring but they are the good guys.They have a nice heart(if there's one inside of 'em').

I guess in life it tells you that there is more than meets the eye, after all.First impression doesn't always come right.When we thought someone to be snobbish, often it turns out to be the other way round.Don't judge a book by its cover.Although I do get fooled by the cover of a book sometimes.You won't know about something(or someone) until you open and read the book. Someone maybe pretty from the outside but underneath that person is the most ugliest creature. I know someone who often gets into trouble, looks like someone who is going to rob a bank but got the softest heart ever.

Jadi,pengajaranya ialah- jangan suka buat tanggapan salah terhadap orang berdasarkan paras rupa.

The path not taken...due to certain circumstances.

This morning, I went for a jog around my housing area.Woke up early today, around 6.50 and all equipped with my sneakers and ipod, I'm all ready to go and burn those calories.

Damn, I'm so not fit anymore and it was damn tiring.

I actually was starting to look like Forrest Gump, when he is running all over America with no apparent reason.I was running and running.

There was some 'pit stops'.I had to tie my stupid shoe laces(which reminds me that I need to get new sneakers soon...), and of course, taking a five minute break because I'm that close to fainting.That was how unfit I am.After abandoning gym and whatnot, especially after Raya.

There was time also when I was running, enjoying the scenery around my house, where there are...obstacles.There's dogs lying on the street, which forced me to go back and jog to another road, dogs barking from one of those houses...and there's this one time, an auntie actually warned me not to continue jogging down the road because '...ada anjing kat depan!'.Haha.

So, my jog today was full of erm, surprises and also obstacle.But I still keep on jogging until I reached home again.

This shows that in life, if you want something, you have to keep going in order to get it.Life is just like a path,a road, street or avenue...depending what you want to call it.There will be a few setbacks on your way to your destination or reaching a goal(in my case, it was the dog)...and you might have to turn around or look for another path.But, the rule is, keep going.Keep going no matter how tough the journey is.It's going to be tricky, but it is going to be worthy.So that's life for you.Not as smooth as you want to...full of surprises and setbacks.

If I'm going for a jog again, I know which road I should avoid now. =)

Memories.

A few minutes ago, while browsing through some of the pictures in my laptop, something has crossed my mind. These pictures represent millions or billions of happy or sad memories. What happens if I delete all of these pictures?Will the memories go away or will it still be in your mind?Playing over and over again, like a mini movie?

When we looked back at some of the moments in life that we captured in a photograph, we learn things about ourselves. How much we've changed, how different we looked like back then. Old friends that make us wonder, "Whatever happened to A??", places or events that occurred before, while and after the picture is taken....or simply things about yourself that you've never realized before.

Those memories are sweet and beautiful sometimes, yet, there are painful ones too.

When you look at a photograph of a painful past, sure, you can simply delete it. Just click 'Delete' and it will be gone forever. Just send it to the Recycle Bin and you'll never see it again. But it's not as simple as that.

There are still photographs of the remaining memories in your mind.

Once, it crossed my mind that, "Gosh, If only I could reprogram my head like the computer, then I'll get over it.If only I could do that.Erase those memories."

In fact, it sounds like that Jim Carrey movie now, Eternal something, something?I don't remember the name of it, but I do know that in that movie, Jim's character wants to erase all of the memories he had with his girlfriend or something. Just because it's too painful for him to think about it. But that's just fiction, right???
If only we can do that...If only.....

However, not so long ago, someone managed to knock some senses into me.It helped me to change my negative view of this matter. "You may need those memories.It may be painful, but trust me you'll need it. If not for you, it's for someone else.One day, you'll be needing it to help others, tell your stories and lessons that you've learned...so that other people won't repeat the same mistake again,"

And then, I see it in a clearer view. It's true. Each memories that we ever experienced tells us a lot of things, it helped us to grow, to be a better person...much wiser.It's ok to create bad ones, because at the end of the day, those are the one who's going to teach you about life.

If you ever think of an old memory that make you cry, it's ok, you can cry. But later, you'll smile because you know that what's past is past, and it can't be undone,no matter how hard you try....and you deserve to smile.And create more happy memories.

=)

The grass is always greener on the other side......

Often, I would dwell on how other people's life far better or exciting compared to mine. It's not that I want to, but sometimes you'll feel this way especially when you are stuck doing something mundane...and others don't.

wouldn't you???

I mean, the saying 'the grass is greener on the other side' does fit with these feelings that you have, but what i've realised yesterday,as I was brushing my teeth was... the grass will always appear to be greener than the one in your backyard, simply because you don't look close enough at your own grass...

Thus, you dont' see the beauty of your own grass.Right??

Other people may have have all the good things that I only can pray to have but in the midst off all, you have to appreciate what's in your own backyard first.Once you do, then you'll realise that whatever it is that you have is not that bad after all....

Your grass is actually as green as the grass on the other side!

It also occurred to me last night, as I was getting ready for bed that...
I may envy with what other people get to experience or whatnot but in the end I'm thankful that

• I have a good place that I can call home here in Brisbane. Some people live in much horrible places!
• I have enough money for basic necessities. Some people have to steal.
• I get to experience some of the good things in life.I get to travel and experience new environment,meet people from all walks of life.Some people doesn't even have the opportunity.
• I get to encounter different people from all walks of life and become friends with them
• I have not much friends maybe, but I have a few ones that I really love and cherish so much.And I'm so glad to have known them.
• I have my family.We may not be close knit,affectionate or very close towards each other...but I have them.Think about those who are unfortunate.
• I live in the best time of the century.I wouldn't want to live during the Japanese occupation or during WWII.
• I live in a peaceful country.Some people dont.

So, whenever I feel this way, I guess i'll have to repeat this mantra to myself over and over again, 'The grass is always greener on the other side, but if you look closely in your own backyard, you'll realise the beauty of your own grass....'

=)