School visit(second).

.......and that's me and the two girls who's on a hide during lunch break at Kelvin Grove State School. Anothere visit for the week is over and final one on the 8th of Sept!!!!

*the girl with the bob haircut really reminds me of Dakota Fanning, apparently....*

The happy-hour post.

Just got back from workshop with Jan just now, where she reminded all of us again to start working on the assignments ASAP and that this Sem will be much tougher compared to the 1st one.It's pretty much what Jo (my-coordinator) said yesterday too, during our one-on-one individual meeting. We talked about the grades, how I'm coping in Australia and other stuff not related to studies such as holidays. Jo pretty much agree with my decision of not working this Sem. I really wanted to work since cash is running low right now, but with qutmysa and ampacq....i don't want to jeopardise my studies. In addition to that, I'm still struggling with time management and some of the electives that I enrolled this Sem.

Apart from writing this entry, I'm happily listening to a few songs(multi-tasker, hahaha) and there are few songs that I really, really like at the mo....and one of it is that Sam Sparro's Black & Gold and that I kissed a girl song. "I kissed a girl and I like it...taste of her cherry chapstick"......Apart from that, I'm counting the hours to break my fast(yes, it's my last day of ganti-puasa,yeay!) and later have some ampacq meeting to attend.I'm going to be quite busy this Sem, that's what I can tell with assignments looming over and whatnot.But then again, I'll be home in M'sia again in 2 months time.

I have a good life and I'm grateful for it.
*Things are not as bad as they appear to be like,Hezrin.
Life must go on, even when it becomes too depressing.*-an optimistic note to myself.

Just another day.

Today is just like any other day,

wake up.wash my clothes...

and I'm going to my first lecture for Teaching Eng as Additional Lang,

after 4 weeks of doing the online module(which I did not completed)

sigh........

I'm to lazy to go to class this sem,

kill me!!!

The post-birthday celebration.

Lately, I'm not in the mood for anything. Things have changed, and I'm struggling to adapt to it....I dread everytime I enter into a new day. I dread when I wake up in the morning, of things that I have to face or things that I have to do....trying to run away from all responsibilities in this world. I look forward to bed time each day, as by sleeping, I can runaway from my trouble or woes, even when I know that I'll succeed in doing so temporarily.


I don't know how to describe the state I'm in right now.I hate going to class. I don't have the mood to go out, unless I have too....nothing motivates me. I've been crying every night before I go to sleep, or whenever I'm lying on my bed with empty mind. Only God knows what it feels like.


At these times, I miss home, I miss my family, even when we are not that close. I rarely talk to parents but somehow, I miss being there at home with them.I feel needy. I feel like I want to be the little girl who's clingy to her parents. That's how I feel.I miss my brother so much,cause am so close with him. Gosh, I just wanna go back.


Even when I feel so low, down or crappy right now, my 21st birthday arrived on the 5th of August recently.
I'm not in the celebration-mode.I don't feel like doing anything. In fact, I actually slept early on the eve of my birthday.


Somehow, my friends made some efforts that managed to light up a smile on my face. Even for a few days. I got a surprise birthday party with cakes and KFC(yes, they know damn well that I've been craving for that particular food).I got a red dress from Supre that I really, really wanted, but can't afford get my hands on it. They took all the effort to decorate their place for the party.I got late night calls from people that I love, wishing me to have a happy 21st birthday. I got a book from my fave author.I got a parcel with Radiohead CDs. B'day cards from another side of the world and also from another part of Australia(The one where I left my heart at...), a 'hand' called it =p and others. Somehow, it's not that grand or whatsoever but, these simple gestures really cheers me up.


Thank you so much, all of you.
You touched my heart.

Thank you for making me smile even just for the moment.

Thank you, thank you so much,
I could not ask anything better than that.
=)

Have you ever??

Have you ever loved someone so much,
Trust that person so much,
That you would do anything for that person??

I have.


Have u ever cared for someone so much,
Thinking of the person's well-being before your own??
Consider that person as your own family member?

Well,
I have.


And what happens when that person tell a lie straight to your face?
Hurt your feelings over and over again,
Betray not only your trust in that person,
But also those around you....
To the point that you start to lose faith and hope in that person,
To the point that you can't forgive the person,
And whatever that person do to win your heart back,
To no avail.

You get hurt, that's what you get.

I may have forgiven whatever the person has done,
I may have tried to forget about it,
But whatever you do,
I'm so sorry,
It's just won't be the same again.

You and I.

That was the past.
I'm moving on now.

I appreciate your effort in rectifying the situation.
But it just won't change overnight.

Don't be sorry.Because I'm not.

Kia Ora, Aotearoa!

New Zealand Trip!!!!

So beautiful!!!

On our way 2 Queenstown...

Yes, the food was good!




With Arifah, Wellington

Astana Idaman, Auckland Version!

Yep, I showered with someone I love.Have you?

With a crazy and fun bunch of people in Auckland,meriahuoll!!

Went to Christchurch, Queenstown, Dunedin, Wellington and Auckland. Arrived at Christchurch before went on a road trip to a few cities in South Island....so basically, I've toured New Zealand's South Island.......

The view is so spectacular, inhaled fresh air all the way and it was damn cold since I went there during winter(-9 Degrees at Queenstown, can you imagine that?????)

Love the whole New Zealand thingy-kiwi fruits, chocolate(???), all blacks and the maori haka.

Had a good time, even though I gained a few unwanted pounds and almost dead-broke,

Thank you so much to those who made it possible-Syefah, Aiman, Atie, Nisah, Faris, Mint, Pikah,Dyau, Arifah(and hosemates!) and Haniff!!! =)


I'M LOVING IT!!!!!!!

misunderstood.

"It's not that complicated, I'm just misunderstood"